Noodzy

The last time I was on here I was in massive pain from the swelling on the left side of my face. Finally saw the oral surgeon like 3 times this week. Everything looks ok, no infections. It is Friday and I barely have any swelling at all. The antibiotic he gave me worked miracles. I’m still having a hard time opening my mouth all the way, but he said to chew gum and use a hot pad on my face which should help my jaw. I am also finally able to eat solid food. Last night I ate a publix sub, and my goodness it was fucking amazing. Couldn’t finish it tho, feel like my stomach shrunk from those 2 weeks of barely eating. Well I’d like to keep it that way ;) This week my anxiety has really been getting the best of me, idk if it’s cause I’m not on my birthcontrol at the moment or if its this house. Or it could be the fact that I’m gonna be broke for the next few weeks. I don’t even know how I’m going to pay my phone bill. I hate stress so very much, especially when it involves money. Can’t wait to start my 12 hour schedules. It’s pouring outside. I have a feeling I’m gonna be spending this friday in doors again :P

Hate my life right now. Been in severe pain all day. Can’t even talk. Boyfriend had to make all these phone calls for me. He contacted my doctor and even had to call my job and let them know I can’t come in tonight. Then payed $50 for an antibiotic for me. He’s truly the best thing to ever come into my life. Then some family drama came out of nowhere which has me stressed out even more. I just wanna eat solid good food, I just wanna feel no more of this awful pain. I don’t wanna be broke anymore. I just want some peace in my life for fucking once :s

Sooo I think I might have lockjaw. Lucky lucky me right? Today was not such a great day…well…it ended ok. I was an emotional wreck the first half of the day seeing how much pain I was in and how my swelling had not gone down at all!! I was going stir crazy here at home and was looking foward to going out with my mom. Had to call her and tell her that I couldn’t. I was in no shape to be going out shopping. After that I had a huge breakdown. I can’t even open my mouth wide enough to swallow a damn pill. I have to jam it in there, if I’m not careful I’ll chip a tooth. All this just really got to me today and I was really really down. My little brother finally came over to hang out its nice to see him for more than just 5min. He’s grown so much. We ordered pizza and watch silly paranormal shows and then Jackass the movie. Then a couple of old friends of mine came over for a visit which I really appreciate, I hadn’t seen them in forever. Time to try and sleep -___- night night <3

God I am about to go stir crazy in here. Alone, in pain, barely having anyone to talk to. I hate this. I hate when people wait til the last minute to invite me anywhere when ive been here all day. I’m sick of being in pain. I’m sick of looking like I have a double chin because I’m so swollen. I’m sick of shitty friends. Just wanna go crawl under a rock right now :(

3 days after the surgery and I’m still in massive pain. I don’t wanna keep taking all these meds, I’m terrified of causing harm to my liver. I called my oral surgeon practically in tears. I was on Percocet, which worked but only for an hour. It was outta my system way to fast which made my pain come back even faster. He then prescribed me Hydrocodone. I have been taking that every 5 to 6 hours with two ibuprofens. They have been working and keeping the pain away for a decent amount of time. But when the pain returns, it returns with full force. Its pain to where I feel like my face is going to explode. I hope to god its all gone withing the next two days. Just can’t do it anymore. On top of that the meds make me itch terribly. My poor bf is worn out from taking care of me, I need to make it up to him somehow, cause I feel awful :( Right now got done watching Spice World, ohhh the memories. And now I’m watching Rugrats season 1 on netflix :D gonna make a hotpocket pizza, I’m hungry again!! Around 9 my bf made chicken and mashed potatoes for me, the chicken was harder to eat than I thought it would be. After I eat I need to try to sleep. 3 hours here and 5 hours there is killing me. Goodnight…or morning…fuck it :P

Sitting in the living room, anxiously waiting for it to be time to take my pain meds. I think sleeping just irritates my mouth even more, so i end up waking up in massive pain and even more swollen then I was when I went to bed :(What makes things even worse is that I think I’m allergic to the meds they gave me and its the only thing helping with my pain at the moment. Can’t wait til 9 am so that I can call my oral surgeon and let them know how much pain I am in and how I’m allergic to the pain meds. Hopefully the can prescribe me something just as strong or one that lets me sleep and not make me dizzy. All this pain is giving me massive anxiety. I can’t take it anymore :(

Today was somewhat shitty. Got the wisdom teeth taken out. Almost threw up right after tho cuz of how dry my mouth was. Felt ok and numb or a few hours and then the pain kicked in. I was just now able to take something else for it. I need some sleep cause the medication they gave me doesnt let me and I’m exhausted. Not to mention starving. Soooo bad want a publix deluxe roast beef sub, biscuits from popeyes, Pizza hut stuffed crust pizza, and taco bell hard tacos. All I can have at the moment is icecream, jello, or yogurt. Tomorrow I can eat warm foods but uggh I know I’m still gonna be starving. Can’t wait til this is all over. Gonna have a feast when it is :P On a good note it was nice to spend the day at my parents with my mom, siblings and dogs, I missed them so much :3 especially Chester <3

old pic btw

About to go to the dentist or..oral surgery clinic to get my wisdom teeth taken out. Only my bottom two. I don’t wanna have to pay an extra $500 for the top two when they are not even extracted yet. Then I’ll be taken to my parents house being that no one will be home at my other house. Boyfriend couldn’t take work off :(on the plus side tho I get to spend time, even tho I might not remember it, with my dogs Chester, Cinnamon, and Bubbles who live with my mom. Mashed potatoes, popsicles and anything else slighly liquified for the rest of the week. YESSSUH!! :P

Pretty much been in bed almost all day watching Dirty Job with naps in between, actually my entire weekend has consisted of dirty jobs and naps ….and taco bell. First half of the day wasn’t very pleasant. I woke up in a raging mood and with an awful headache. Took my headache medication which did calm me down but did not take away my headache and made me sleep instead :P Went to the pharmacy and picked up some medicine for my wisdom tooth surgery tomorrow. Then went to the grocery store to find some food I can actually chew after the surgery. Got mashed potatoes, apple sauce, and ravioli. Probably not gonna remember tomorrow. Gonna be so out of it. Gonna end up missing more work too, gahhh my next paycheck is going to be so shitty :P oh well, I have someone who loves me and won’t let me starve <3