Found out today that the position I applied for last week, as a receptionist at my boyfriends back doctors office, already got filled. It really broke my heart, I’ve been struggling to find a job and that one seemed absolutely perfect for me. Everyone told me how desperate he was for a receptionist. It was three days a week and near my boyfriends job, so it would have worked out perfect for us. Don’t know why I even bothered to give him my resume, such a waste. It also would have been perfect being that I have back problems and it’s not a physical job at all. I cried for 2 hours straight because it was just so upsetting cept my bestfriend brianna def put a smile on my face with her post from earlier. I’m just so sick of no one even wanting to give me an interview. All my life I have struggled with money, my Parents first and now me. I don’t believe it when people say money doesn’t buy happiness. Well I think it depends on that particular persons situation. Like me for example, money right now will buy me happiness, I’ll have a job to help my bf with his house and furniture, money to get myself to a doctor and money for some new clothes since all of my old ones no longer fit and are clearly worn out.
Like I’ve said before, sick of playing housewife here, I wanna make my own money, I wanna be independent, I wanna be able to go out with friends without money being such a concern. I wanna even help out my family a little whom I know are always struggling with money. I wanna be able to pay my phone bills, birth control and pay for whatever my dog Molly needs without feeling bad having my boyfriend pay for it all. And get us an alarm system so we can leave the house without worrying being that some one already tried to break in once. Money so that we can just go on little vacations if we want just to get away from reality, he needs these vacations more than I do. So me getting a job would def benefit us both. That little extra money WILL make a difference. UGGHH I NEED MONEY FOR CHARLA VAILS BAKERY TOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to try one of her cuppycakes :3
Yup, currently watching it on Netflix. Pretty interesting actually seeing how far back porn goes, all the way to the early 1900’s. Alot of it started in France actually, those horny frenchies!!! I guess they were the first ones to actually show pussy in a video or pictures. America only showed boobs up until the 60’s, until then showing anything from below the waist was too “dirty”. They even showed clips of Bettie Page doing a strip tease. I also didn’t think lesbian or gay porn came out til the 70s or 80s and there was quite a bit of it, hell alot of it back in 1920s France.
So achy, I have not been able to exercise because of these crazy body aches and headaches. I haven’t been able to do anything really. Currently watching Moulin Rouge, I used to own the soundtrack to this movie lol. Yesterday I watched Sid and Nancy, honestly Nancy was alot prettier than the girl who played her in the movie. She was too overbearing and obnoxious. I noticed Courtney Love had a small part in the movie, I think she would have made a better prettier Nancy…just saying. Currently got off the phone with my mom, nothing but bad news about my dad. I am done with him, he has never been a good father to me. I am now old enough to make the choice of cutting him out of my life and that’s exactly what I’m going to do.
Whenever I get a job I’m gonna go on the hunt for cute wedges and dye my hair a much lighter brown or strawberry blonde, I need change!! Sick of being such a dark brunette. I want these from forever21, they always go outta stock then 3 months later they are back again. UGHHH come to MEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!
He called into work because he hurt his back pretty bad yesterday. He can’t even lean down because of the pain. It was nice being able to sleep in with him, at the same time tho it does not feel like a Monday, almost feels like a sunday on repeat. I hope it gets better because his back doctor and massage therapist are out of town and he has to work the rest of the week. As for me, regular routine of waking up, watching some of the Casey Anthony trial and working out. Then ending the day with Pokemon and wine.
Anyone know what he can do to help his back? He’s having pain in the upper part of his back, finds it hard to breathe, and he can barely lean down. I know icing it kinda helps.
“I made a mask out of my face because I didn’t realize I was quite beautiful. God blessed me so. I practically destroyed it. I had to wear heavy black eyelashes like bat wings, and dark lines under my eyes, and cut all my hair off, my long dark hair. Cut it off and strip it silver and blonde. All those little manoeuvres I did out of things that were happening in my life that upset me.”—Edie Sedgwick (via fuckyeahediesedgwick)