back to reality. David left back for Japan this morning. We had breakfast together with some friends at a yummy diner near my house. Then we gave each other the longest hug ever. Every time he comes it seems to get even harder to say goodbye. Especially when this time I don’t even know when he’ll be back. Last time he left he was sure he was coming for the New Year. I already miss him :( Now instead of planning our next adventure, it’s back to reality of working and saving. I’m currently gonna start saving for a new camera, I’d like an upgrade. I’ll just use my old one as my fish eye camera and leave the lens on. I also need to start making appointments now that I have insurance. Need new glasses and to see my primary doctor. Need to fix myself, I’m surprised how ok I’ve done since last February when I ran out of my last medication. It all could have been or gotten worse, so I’m grateful. I almost feel like I am starting a new chapter in my life. It’s hard to explain. I tried explaining it to David but the words wouldn’t come out correctly. He still knew what I meant tho. It’s like high school was one chapter then moving out of my parents til now was another. I feel as tho I’m starting a new one, as a woman this time. 2011 was so full of change for me, I feel like it has all prepared me for this new part of my life. I feel stronger and more hopeful than I have ever which makes me question if I should really seek help from a doctor or if I should just try to make myself better. We’ll just have to see what happens..